nakedkeithm

Despite being a modest, reserved person in my everyday life, I have a fascination with exhibitionism. I've always had fantasies about appearing nude and masturbating in front of large anonymous audiences, and while I kept that to myself throughout my life, deep down I also struggled with a desire to experiment with it. Despite some very strong nervousness and apprehension, I am taking that first hesitant step toward seeing if this really is who I am, or just some exciting fantasies. I know I don't have a ripped body or a big cock, but I am not doing this believing that people will think I'm hot - I need to see if feeling vulnerable, nervous, and embarrassed is a necessary part of my sexual experience.

The internet can be a cold and impersonal place, a very intimidating, one-sided environment to show myself this way. But that's exactly the situation I need to experience - it makes me feel nervous and uncomfortable yet totally turned-on at the same time. Despite being an introvert who avoids the spotlight in my daily life, this is pushing me out of my comfort zone - the power imbalance, vulnerability, and self-consciousness is REAL...and I am literally naked to the world and have no control over who sees me this way. I realize that porn stars do this every day, but it is a pretty big step for an average guy like me to explore this side of myself.

Despite some lingering doubts and uneasiness about doing this, but I know that exploring this side of myself is necessary. Because being PUBLICLY exposed is such an important part of my exploration, I must learn to accept that I am literally surrendering my privacy to be owned by the anonymous eyes of the internet and therefore am not entitled to any form of modesty or confidentiality.

submission; exhibitionism; ruined orgasm; forced erection and orgasm; sounding; groped/grabbed; bondage; being photographed and watched; feeling extremely embarrassed and exposed